The shameless score

Firstly a self tick for the right thing to myself. lol

Been a while since i blog, lazy mood for blogging was up the past few weeks.

School has been ok so far…but cds has been rlly great and interesting.

If i could go back in time id study harder to get myself into my desired course.

But what happens happens. we fall then rise, cos thts jus wat we should do.

 

Anyway the past mnth has taught me something.

Some things we could if we would. It depends if we want to own it and be responsible….

along with the breed that grows from it.

Brave to do, then be brave to bear.

 

Till then, peace be upon you

 

Name:

to a certain somebody,

if ur reading this do tell me up front/online if u were referring to me in ur post. ty

till then, peace be upon you

Savour the Best for the Last

To have lots of friends is a good thing, but having true friends is a blessing – yours truly

But wat are true friends? it really is up to each of us to dictate to whom or what it means. and how i wish i had a large group of close friends. but im pretty much content with the people close around me.

anyway the weekends and last friday is getting on to a weary state at the thought of school reopening on monday. rlly am not hyped about school reopening and obviously feeling lazy. zzZ

timetable’s a hectic one too. haiii…

but still am anticipating some things from another fresh semester.

cant wait to get on with reading books,lecture notes, notes, and more notes…and finally be done with another exam.

…..5 more sems and 2 yrs of national service to go…so thts about 4 1/2 yrs more b4 im finally in a real job. awesome… 4 1/2 yrs more and i’ll be 23+ yrs old…old…..not awesome. haha

anyway besides this sombre wearing-me-out thought, the past week has been among the best week i ever had.

from the soccer matches, to the fishing trip, to the hanging out at a great new place, new food, and eating chips and chips and chips at home with friends along with monopoly! haha

monopoly does indeed help u bond more with the people around you u know.

and yea, also bought a new fishing rod and the other stuff along with it the past week. cant wait for another fishing trip next time.

ahh…thinking bout the past week rlly has lighten me up abit.

lucky me, the last week of holiday was a blast.

like they say, savour the best for the last.

till then, peace be upon you

12 steps

time: 3.14 am. to the exact and of two decimals rounded up. lol. and courtesy to google time. haha

seems like ive got nothin better to do eh. its 3.14 am. what do one expect to do? suddenly one is limited to certain things after midnight. boredom kills. hmm

things i can do after 12am/everyone else at home i asleep

1)the computer wif no music or get scolded

2)play ps2 wif no vol of get scolded

3)watch tv

lucky me ive found the radio played wif a headset off my hp as a very good companion during these times.

was playing soccer games till mood went down and mood for blogging went up. haha

kinda lazy to talk bout wat i did today. ok ok. played soccer at school as usual. fun as usual. and ate at fork and spoon as usual. -_- haha

its kinda boring wen one elaborates too much of wat they do daily. it seems so.

holidays are comin to an end in a week anyway. two months of holiday and suddenly its ending. time certainly flies very fast. it always does wen one thinks about the days/weeks/months or years past.

spent the holidays mostly fasting for the 1st month then celebrating hari raya for the second month. and family is expanding more and more as cousins get married and nephews/nieces are born. a philippines, an indonesian, and a lebanese brought to known to the family. wow.

but ties arent as tight and close among all. and how i really wished it was. im close to the small little kids throughout the family and to a cousin. jus one cousin…and thts about it. though getting close to one has been very very awesome, more would be very much welcome actually. fault lies part in me honestly. cos i tend to chose who i wish to interact/know or click with. wont bother much wif someone wasting my time. and its been a good/bad thing from experience. some old friends would understand tht. not tht i hate em or anything else. i jus cant be bothered and thts it.

but we still have to learn to accept and respect how others want to live their life the way they want it

live ur life the way u want it to be.

i was intending to write bout something else actually…but seems like ive strayed off…much. haha

till then, peace be upon you

1.2.n.

hello ther. woke up as usual today…at 3pm. but come on. its the holidays. haha.

was awaken by loud noises actually. and surprise surprise who was at my house today.

singapore ex/ footballers. 0_0. some familiar faces such as nazri nasir. the others…0_0. no idea. haha

they’re not here talking bout soccer actually, and doesnt look like for hari raya too sadly…”$!!”, cos apparently their favourite next thing besides soccer is golf. and they are talking golf. yep. golf. thts one thing i always don understand. how dad and his frens can talk so long bout golf. golf 0_0. hahaha

sat at home the whole day today. and practiced guitar as usual.

oh! wanna know how fast my fingers are? 168 bpm at 2 beats per measure. and to the utmost of clean and smooth. lol. nothing to be proud of actually. hehehe. haha. gonna and got to practice more though. absolutely.

got nothin else to write about. mind is suddenly directing to final fantasy xii

well then, peace be upon you.

. o O

faggot! haha

…..          TRAITS. is it something that is genetically passed down, or is it born from the development and surroundings of each of our lives? for a moment i kinda realise a common trait from my family, the whole family; from nieces to uncles to cousins to elders. bahhh. im thinking too generally, i think. haha.

looking back, life is really like a roller coaster. never a certain shape too it. cant describe it to any shape really. and here i am typing, or maybe blabbering, cos i cant seem to sleep. don really feel sleepy actually, though its 5.30 in the morning. and cos mind’s still full of books wanting to fill in. wishing.

and as of now i wish i could be honest with everyone, and perhaps from now on, and forever. but thts bullshit eh. no such thing as a perfect individual. don wish to be perfect too. enough now. don feel like sharing much more to the www

anyway yesterday was a really great day. oh great is such a great word. haha. better than saying a happy day, a sad day, etc. cos my mind is an inconsistent one. and like syam said, should have more of such outings again eh.

and finally before the till then, haha, some games arent worth winning.

till then, peace be upon you. ;D

Chapter _

New cam. New Shoe.

Macbeth yo! hahahahaha…and i’ll finally be able to upload pics for blog

went to break fast at mac today with bil,mat and syam. Nabil’s idea to break fast ther. Expected to have something else instead other than fast food for breaking fast…cos never will i think of breaking fast at a fast food restaurant. But turned out to be a great time eventually. MCSPICY SHIOKKK! haha. and SHAKER FRIES PUN SHIOKKKK! haha. Never would i thought mac would be among the best days and place to break fast. oh well, cos ther were great friends wif me all along

MACBETH’S WALLISTER:”CANCER FIGHTER”

CANCER FIGHTER! grrrrr. haha

a new experience

hello ther

fasting season has jus reached the start of its 2nd week and has since been a peaceful flow for now. good job to me. and praise to god. done with main exams too and very much confident with it. though more could be expected actually.

its 12.30am as of now btw. jus got home from geylang with mum. bought things to be decorated for the comin hari raya, although its still a bit early now. very much early actually. but getting it done early is much much better. last minutes will be too troublesome. picked out new window blinds, curtain sets, and a bunch of plastic flowers. oddly im given me the liberty to chose the designs and colours for my home decor for nearly every year. dad is very much lazy with everything, but has so many comments on everything too. brother is well not like a brother. and mum is a fickle minded one. haha. will be buying paint for door tmr i guess.

ohh. anyway. will be expecting a new tv in my house tis comin tuesday. A FULL HD 200 Hz set from courts will be comin. NICEEEEEEE. last time dad bought any electronic stuff for home was like 2-3 yrs ago i think. and thts also because the old tv set is dying. soon. can u imagine having to wait several hours after pressing the tv switch b4 the screen finally appears? several hours! thts how troublesome and sick it is. haha. good thing its on the verge of dying too. haha.

oh. the tv set will come with a free 26″ lcd tv and a nikon coolpix digicam. CANTIK! good deal i mus say. haha. and all praise to god.

till then, peace be upon you

menanti

jus reached hm after a long day out. went studying wif classmates at school and met up with ite friends at 6pm at tm starbucks. drink drank laugh, then went to qiji to eat laksa!!!

chilled at t1 open space after tht till closed. enjoyed my day overall and with a smile along through till now from 6. haha

yg tidak disangkai, dirindui pula.

yg diingati selalu, sentiasa dirindui juga

apa sih dengan aku membagi rindu kepada lebih dari satu. haha

tetapi…

kalo hati berkata…minda terbuka…ayuuu rasanya

namun dengan sendirinya juga, tidak pun dipaksa….

yg menarik hati, yg menawan perhatian, pastilah direnungi. pastilah dilamuni khayalan.

hahaha. walaupun ia sementara. temanku lawa laa.

dah sudah. tamat di sini la. ngantuk sih

till then, peace be upon you

the first full stop.

huehuehuehuehue.

4 weeks/26 days. Checkmate

Pantun pertamaku

wrote this while i was suppose to be studying. haha

pantun pertamaku…. cehh cehh. haha

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corak kehidupan
dijahit sendiri
usaha ikhtiar
direnung di hasil
jangan lupa
indah dan murni
disanjungi pemberian
oleh takdir dah illahi

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by yours truly

not quite sure though if its suppose to mean with wat i had in mind. bahhh

till then, peace be upon you

A set set

Apparently fate seems to be fooling around with me for the past few days.

Dreamt of someone lately -_-. huh. and wat was she trying to say -_-?

and jus then, coincidentally i had to reboot my com while a song was playing and singing out her name halfway. -_- sesetengah daripada wanita ini tidak dijelaskan. ah pikirlah pikir. haha

weird or either pure coincidence or too much thoughts out of it.

wateva fate decides or happens is still much amusing yet interesting. hmmmm. haha

past week has really been out of ordinary. cos dear people, i have a strand of red goatee hair. ONE natural strand of  red goatee hair. hahahaha

bahhhh life here is tested and uncertain. memento mori. awaiting hereafter…a greater beyond. perhaps

till then, peace be upon u

Engaged to a nocturne

Been really engaged to the nocturne of nearly all of Killswitch Engage songs lately.

They bring both rage and solace to their music at the same time. Definitely one of my favourite bands i must say.

Wrote this down while listening to them….

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His feelings reflected upon him inside
The heart raging, results to resisting
In between, persisting
Biting in keeping his sanity
Biting to comfort the fury in him

Resentment awakens
Lighting up a storm from within
Urging to strike down clamantly
Breaking a boundary, raining a foul varmint

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By yours truly. haha

cant think of what more to write….guess i’ll continue when the mood arises

till then, peace be upon you

Jelly-me-today

Huehuehuehuehue

jus got back from gym awhile ago and my arms are seriously aching!!

haha. cant even bend my arms fully easily. and i had difficulties brushing my teeth and bathing!!!! hahaha

arms were so aching and weak and flexible like jelly that i was like a retarded person trying to bathe. GOSHHH. they went swaying and swaying and swaying around….and swaying and swaying and swaying around. lol

had a great time today anyway….went to pasir ris after school, den ride back on khai’s bike back to home in amk, then back to tampines gym, then back to home in amk. lololol. seems like we got so much time. but only on monday -_-. haha

anyway…got to know a new fren from school who happens to be from the same ite back then too. huehuehuehuehue. happy happy happy. wink wink wink wink. haha

ada juga wajah lawa tuk pandang kat skola. kekekeke

god willing, i’ll get to know my new fren better and longer. haha. “god pls pls pls pls pls” lol!.  jus jk

till then, peace be upon u

Vices like Vipers

Time: 22:36:50. LOL

Jus got back from amk hub wif khai. Went around looking for couple rings for his gf. Cehhh dia beli cincin sehh. hahaha

He’s gonna propose to his gf actually. Ok jus joking. haha.

Went about to many stores cos he’s kinda picky.haha. but thts a good thing too…picking the best for the best. and finally settled upon this shop wher he recognised and finally got a pair of rings tht he was rlly satisfied with.

a pair of black/gold rings. now thts a rare thing to c. or perhaps i dont recognise wat color ppl rings are. who does tht anyway -_-. haha

anyway maths quiz 3 is tmr. honestly not prepared for it cos the study time allocated for it was only about a week. a few days actually out of my busy time this week.

been attending this recording workshop for weeks. new stuff. new knowledge. a smarter me. hahaha. ok ok

and ive been calculating the things i need for a complete professional recording rig. $5,053 more to go. 0_0. 7 more things to go. think i’ll save for one thing at a time. how many yrs would tht take actually!

bluhhhh….but wats needed has to be done and gotten if possible.

till then, peace be upon u

Lagenda Wings

Here’s a cover i made from the song Intan Ku Kesepian by Wings.

and also to test the mic the amp technique and to compare to the digital side of the pod farm

Only all guitar tracks are recorded by me.

Recorded with :

Roland Cube 30 -> Toneczar Openhaus -> Schecter C-1 Classic miced with a dynamic karaoke mic -> Toneport UX8

Think i seriously need a good vid cam to go along with my recording. and also more tutorials on mixing and wateva else that needs to be learnt. Oh well,

enjoy…

Till then, peace be upon u

Calling for amusement

To amusement i call out first. Bored as of now.

im having hip aches since yesterday. Both aching on every stretch and i wonder how tht happened 0_0

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An hourglass turned

To a fellow slave and through time to a system created

Dropped, and given,

soon passing a bag of burden

Actions compiled, a bored mind discharges

Conceiving a board,

with two kings created, the others will be decided

Pieces will collide

A nocturne results

The creator seen smiling onto, concealing through

Begin ;D

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On a carousel, looking at a roulette.

By yours truly

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This really seems like random stuff. Like. And while waiting for time, guess i’ll go watch ONE PIECE!

till then, peace be upon u

Vela!

Finally got a whole day free to be with my guitar! haha

AND IM DONE WITH “VELA, TOGETHER WE AWAIT THE STORM”’s intro sweep at 1:20!

oh well,i know i know. im good im good. haha

The Human Abstract – Vela, Together We Await The Storm

Her Mendacity

Her Mendacity

Spoken with conviction!
Attracted to the expression
Neglecting all the fiction

No struggles needed
As i willfully accepted
Descended, a divine unrivaled
Get stupefied on a consonant class
Deviade!

The power of her words
Blowing a creation
Consuming onto a blinded me
Onto a blinded journey

Get trapped in her invention
Get devoured into the game of deception
Drifted from reality
Believing in fantasies

Lies after lies
The pure and truth needs to persevere
Lies after lies
A step behind, and i’ll become like one

You lied!

A past mendacity, now a present vacancy
Repeated over and over again
Spoken are my actions,
Deciding on the closings
Never an eventual to begin

Her mendacity
Murdering on an unseen thrust
Crashing all who searches and defy

By yours truly.

A past mendacity, now a present vacancy…

A past mendacity, now a present vacancy…

Here’s something i wrote a few days ago during a long trip back to home in the bus. haha

im not finished with it yet though. i think

and so….

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Mendacity

spoken with conviction!
attracted to the expression
neglecting all the fiction

no struggles needed
as he willfully accepted

the power of her words
blowing a creation
consuming onto a blinded him

get trapped in her invention
get devoured into the game of deception

lies after lies
the pure and truth needs to persevere
lies after lies
a step behind, and u’ll become like one

u lied

- by hafis

somehow. or always, if im without an mp3 player, i’ll get bored in the bus and start looking around at what other people are doing. the various characters and puzzling happenings around you. either that, or SLEEP. zzZZZz. haha

sat beside a girl wearing a purple dress while on the bus trip. kinda reminded me of dawn. then i started thinking of hookers cos the bus was on its way along geylang too. haha. geylang -_-. a dwelling place for “hungry” men. and suddenly the word lie came up on my head….and hence the product of a written work, mendacity.

observing and writing has always been a great killer of boredom anyway.

well thts all i hav to post. gotta rush on my wrtoral ppt project in awhile.

till then, peace be upon u.

19

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

Cheers!

and im posting it a day late -_-.  Haha

Knocks

Jus got back from school. And hungry. haha

School jus reopened last week too. A new term, a new goal.

Its been tiring but fun. And thankfully poly’s life has been a great one so far. Alhamdulillah, praise to god.

The last strive for me to be at the high. Gonna study hard and aim to get a satisfying result, god willing.

School life aside, my normal everyday life has got its ups and down lately. Well who doesnt? More downs actually.

Ive let go of something very important lately. Not sure she’s read it yet though. And i dunno if i should be proud or sad and stupid about it. -_-

Cant believe myself im giving up. Or maybe? Held on for so many years to hope for something.

But sometimes some people arent jus worth ur time eh. No use putting in effort in something without an outcome.

Cant go on wasting my time. Well time will heal i guess. Gotta move along, gotta move along…

Till then, peace be upon u.

Friends :)

Went out yesterday wif the usual peeps,syam and nabil.

Accompanied nabil to vivo to check out fcuk shirts. turns out the shirt he wanted had stripes on the sleeves. no no to buying it then. haha

walked around vivo after tht. laughs and laughs and laughs as usual.

walked around as we were bored, wif no purpose until we found starbucks and decided to hang around ther.

COFFEE!!!! coffee i tell u, such an addictive drink. COFFEE!!!! stayed at starbucks till 10+ cos the shop was closing and went home after tht.

oh. jus got my results for my term tests anyway.

CKT-A

DFUND-B

MATHS-C

cant believe i got a C for maths -_-. oh well, stupid class test. guess  i’ll study harder then

and finally, sad news broke out worldwide. Michael Jackson was pronounced dead on the 25th of June.

Condolences to the family of the legendary pop king and may Allah be wif him always. R.I.P mikaeel

till then, peace be upon u.

Wait!!

Hello ther, im waiting for time to past by for the next few mins actually for asr prayers.

And so…blogging’s a new good thing for me to do while waiting for time!

anan’s leaving tmr anyway. =( im gonna miss u alot. each day as usual from now on. why oh why i still dont know why. ive got things left unsaid to her still. sad tht ur leaving. quite disappointed too. and quite frustrated in waiting honestly.

but i wont be angry wif her. promised myself i cant be bias and unfair.  cant always be having things the way i want it to be. and i cant be forcing u to go out wif me too rite. its ur life anyway. u chose to be busy and forget some things. as long as ur safe and happy…

guess i’ll wait and c u next yr. i’ll pray for u to have a safe journey back home too.

bahhh….u got me thinking bout u again -_-  haha

till then, peace be upon u.

“another day in vain, passing on, move along” by human abstract

Number 1

Hahhhhh… im finally done with the layout of my blog. Quite satisfied with this default layout. BUT THE FONTS ARE SMALL!! SMALLLL! small. cant do any custom layout cos ive got zero knowledge on editing it. css? html?  O_O !?

will read and learn on these editing stuffs during my spare time however and make changes to it as time goes. seems fun if i knew how to. but seems alien to me now.

till then, peace be upon u.